And So Let It be


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Waiting…

It’s been a long time for this solitude accompanying my heart

Leaving me with all the longings

That took me to an imaginary world

Then how would it be when he return?

Coming…..

And finally it is the time

To end this waiting

Time has brought various gifts about him

Among all the good things and all the beautiful fruits of his dream

And so I am happy

Saddening….

When I saw that time also brought another reality

Not in line with my wish

But it is his wish

And I could not say no

Thus I should let go

Do not…

Do not come to me anymore…

Flaunting your beauty and success

Do not even greet me…

As that voice of yours would shatter my heart again

Do not give me your laughter…

As I am afraid this feeling might woke me up again

From my ignorant sleepiness

That I have built

On the tomb of love I built in my heart

And so let it be.

Dili, February 24, 2014

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Talita kum

Talita kum, my Soul

For you are the true essence

Of my abstract life

The basic substance

on the fuel of my machine body

With you I found my reason to live

Talita kum, my mind

For you are the fuel

That joints all my body spareparts

With you,

I know I am not a merely a fucking life machine.

Talita kum, my body

For you are the outer body part of me, a machine

I am a machine designed for life

To entertain life is my aim

But I am more than a machine

I do not wanted to be machine at all

So go fight that controller

Beat it to your feet

Let you be its controller

Talita kum… talita kum.. 

Oh my body

my mind 

and my soul.

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The Hot Wisdom Tea

Every morning, the universe pour the hot wisdom tea from its teapot to my small tea glass.  

I have to wait till it gets warm before I could sip it slowly to finish. 

Sometimes, I also have to blow it so I can inhale its smell.

If I drink it at one gulp, then I will not truly feel its  sweetness.

Batugade, 22/6/2018

Unheard

It’s 10 pm, you already fell asleep

It’s 12 am, and my mind cannot sleep

I tossed to left, I tossed to right

Still I cannot get myself right

On this cotton bed cover

I shed my tears, getting myself uncover

I know you do hear me sobbing

But your ears may have no opening

Here, in our bedroom, I am crying

But here, also in our bedroom, you remain deafening.

Bedroom, 24/6/2018

Footprint

Everyone of us is a footprint

People will step on us

Some will look down to us for a glance

Some will just ignore it
Mascarenhas, 3/2018

“A Very Small Boat”

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This ocean is very wide

And I am a very small boat

From this shoreline I look

The waves sometimes slam with anger

The waves sometimes are silent and do not care at all

Listen to the singing wind

Sometimes it screams

Sometimes it whispers

Seeing the farewell of the sun

Remaining with myself’s company in a solitude

I am a boat, a very small one and alone.

Lecidere, April 2016

 

“A Very Small Boat” https://medium.com/@vitaliaze/a-very-small-boat-c766fbd7654b

To My Fellow Women

International-Womens-Day

To my fellow women

We are

resilient

Courageous

Optimistic

Persistent

Ingenious

Creative

Inspirational

Motivational

Mobilize

Liable

Loving

Nurturing

Encouraging

Hardworking

Inquisitive

Affectionate

Furious

Grumpy

Stirring

Singing

Screaming

Laughing

Crying

Falling down

Rising up again

Pretty

Extraordinary!

We are

the women

Daughter

sister

Elder sister

Only–daughter

Girl

Wife

Mother

We exist for a great meaning!

Do not be afraid!

Keep moving ahead!

 

Dili, 8 March 2018

Happy International Women’s Day.

Blind Lover

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I was blind when I met you

I could not see how bad or good looking you were

All I could do was feeling you in my touch

Listening to your voices, your laugh, your sigh

In my blindness, I had painted you beautifully in my mind

I loved to be with you every day, every hour, every minute

Coz every moment with you was magical

I forgot the whole world

Everytime you called my name

Then a yard of spring flowers blossomed in my heart

Butterflies flies upon the flowers everytime you kissed me

That feeling called ‘love’ blossomed wildly there

I was extremely happy

My blindness was nothing with you being mine

Then one day my eyes could see

I looked for you, you were nowhere to find

My world turned dark

As I could see it clearly now

There is no you, nor your love

I was blind so did my love to you.

 

VZ

Dili, 19/02/2018