My heart still shakes
When my mouth says your name
When my ears hear your name
When my head reminds me of your name.
On each letter of your name
My pulse beats its rhythm.
Your face painted in my memory
and has not yet lost its colors.
the beautiful memories of you still welded in this mind.
Although time has taken you from my side.
Why do I still feel your steps approach me?
Why do I still feel your touch in my body?
Why do I still see the brown colors of your eyes?
This sleepiness still display your movie in my dreams
Yet I cannot seek for you anymore
Cause the wind of the night had taken you away from me.
Oh.,.. my darling.
I still cannot forget you
Because the heart of mine still beats for you
Whenever I mention your name.
VZ, Dili, 2nd December 2016
Why does this heart feel so empty?
Despite all the beautiful things it has for companions?
Among all the conversation, laughter and friendship
Still, there is only emptiness remains.
Within the loudness,
I feel everything becomes mute.
Within the muteness,
I hear the loudness yells.
A smile crafted in my face,
Yet the tears and grief fully seal my heart.
Oh, the Conqueror of my heart…
What have you done to me?
Till it becomes hard for me to turn back?
At wherever I am,
To wherever I go,
Only your shadow remains there
With an open arms waiting for me
To enfold me with the hugs.
Oh, the dear of my heart …
When could the miracle open its eyes to us?
Because my heart is becoming withered
By holding on this expectation.
VZ, Dili, December 18th, 2014
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