Peace comes from within. Do not seek it without. Buddha
It was around six o’clock in the morning when I woke up from my sleep and realize that I am going start another page of my life today. I sat for a while looking at my surroundings. Things in my room still remain the same.
In the stillness of the morning, I am thinking about doing a five-minutes meditation in silence but once I started close my eyes a local pop song played cheerfully in a loud voice sung from the radio. Dasshh… It suddenly loses my appetite to meditate. I got up and went out to the street to breath some fresh airs. The music sounded louder now and it did not only come from the radio belong to my landlord of the house but also from the local mobile vegetable sellers who always come early in the morning to meet their consumers. They put a speaker in their chariot of vegetables;s and played the music quite loud to announce the local consumers about their presence.
I sat in front of the house looking at them, I am also one of their consumers as I usually buy fresh vegetables from them. A bundle of vegetables such as green swamps, green vegetables, spinach, potatoes, tomatoes, carrots, cauliflower and another assortment of vegetables costs $0.50 to $1.00 so does the same for herbs and spices like coriander leaves, ginger, garlic, onions and chili peppers. Looking at how busy these vegetable sellers are, made me think whether they do have a time for meditating. I do not know why I am thinking about them doing a meditation. Do they have to? I don’t think so. They must already be too busy for a whole day going around the capital city of Dili pushing their chariots to every house in Dili in exchange for some bucks of American dollars. I sat still looking at them.
Then, I continue ahead with the routine of the day. Preparing myself for work, having breakfast at the office if I was not able to prepare it home, check my to-do list and working toward it until lunch time come. Get my lunch at a nearby office canteen if again was not able to bring it from home and then have a pause for a while before going on with the rest of the afternoon working until half-past five o’clock in the morning. As people going around me, I heard sounds of the walking and talking marching in my ear, tickling sounds from the computer keyboards, buzzing sound from the air conditioners. I stopped for a while, I think everything around me is noisy. I want to find a peaceful spot just to escape myself for a while.
I start to think, can I really find a peaceful spot in my noisy day? I am always trapped within this same pattern of noisiness every day. Why I just notice it now? I got up, took a walk for a minute, stretch my body and then look at the blue sky above me outside. That sky looks like a ceiling while the earth around me is the prison cell. Then if the world is the prison cell and we human are the prisoners, to where can we find the peaceful spot? Perhaps this is why Buddha said that the peace comes from within and do not seek it without.
VZ, Dili, February 28, 2017